SECOND PART OF THE LONGEST WEEK OF MY LIFE

The real importance of a thing you come to know only when its not with you. I was desperate to attend the classes, the same class which we just hated to go and attend.

I woke up at 5 o'clock in that morning took a bath for half an hour, combed my hairs for next 15 minutes, wore milky white shirt and blue pant and reached the class half an hour before. I opened the doors and windows of the classroom, switched on all lights and fans and waited patiently till the next person came. Everybody greeted me like a leader coming out of jail. I was unable to decide weather its a moment of pride or embarrassment.

Blackboard had never looked so beautiful before. I took down every word teacher said or wrote in that class. I was so happy that day that nobody can imagine without being under same circumstances himself. It felt like I would have got another life, escaping narrowly from death.

But my problems were not coming to an end. During break between 10 to 10:15 I saw chief warden and wished him. He told me "you have to work hard before the issue settles". "What are you saying sir? Issue has not settled yet?" I asked in somewhat disbelief, he smiled and walked away saying go and meet your H.O.D.


H.O.D. suggested me that you should go and say sorry to "him" and some of the wardens of his age group. Probably till then they also had started to believe that teacher is behind the student. I assured him that whenever I will find a free period I'll meet "him". Somehow my department came to know that 'today itself warden's meeting is going to be held'.

My faculty adviser came in between and took me out from fluid lab. He told me that just go now and say him sorry before any harsh action will be taken against you.

I went to him. After seeing my face I can't explain in words what was his situation ."You are coming to after one month to say sorry??" he almost cried. I came back thinking that now nothing will happen.

But on Thursday evening a notice of Hostel out came to me at 4 o'clock that "you have to vacate your room till 5 o'clock today". It was raining Dogs and Cats outside. How can I vacate the room in one hour? Where should I go? Tomorrow is Id then Saturday, Sunday then second sessionals from Monday, I was just helpless. I tried to meet chief warden, he told go and meet your H.O.D. But H.O.D. was not there in his cabin, I was just wandering in the corridors of D.B. Then I saw our geology teacher (who was Dean students welfare and staff advisor also at that time) I just went to him and told entire story. Then he suspended(overruled) the Hostel out notice. My second sesional exams was not good.

Then after exams he called me and told me that I have to vacate my room, because it was the decision of wardens committee. I shifted my all luggage to my friends room and after arranging my temporary stay, I vacated my room.

I took a room in 'Alhuda' in Cattangal. Although I used to go there only at night for sleeping. It was horrible being in Cattangal at 12 o'clock in night alone! But I did nothing wrong in that single room being alone as you people might be thinking off....!!!

I left Alhuda's room within a week and started living in hostel in my friend's room illegally. It was a period of absolute madness for me. It did not felt how days and nights were passing. During same period just three days before End sem exam I had a sever Asthma attack. I have heard that Asthma has a great connection with your emotions. That might had been one of the reasons I don't know.That day I came to know the importance of a single breath in our life as I struggled for every single breath. Soon, I was in B.M.H. in critical care unit (yes... it was C.C.U and not I.C.U.). I recovered very fast and came back to the hostel same day.

After that day I left smoking and drinking. I had only 2 days left to study for End sem exam. I wrote End sem some how.....!!!

My G.P.A in that sem was 7.72. Then on first day of S6 C.W. called me and said "you can go to your room, but I want your help in tackling ragging in the campus". I told "yes sir"....!!! When I entered in to my room entire seen was running fast in front of my eyes as live thing. All things came one by one - the cricket ground, Casino, DISCO,T20 match, Night in Cattangal, B.M.H and after all this I thought a G.P.A 7.72 and next sem 8.33 are not bad. I was a mere 6 pointer and that incident made me a 8 pointer.

Yes, there is anger, that is natural. I know I can't change the world but I can change myself, my attitude to my problems, the way I deal with situations.

It feels like a movie which happened to someone else. I had those days mapped out in my mind; all I had to do is type the words to fit the image.

Earlier, if I saw a stone in the path I would may be skirt it. Now , I want to remove it; someone else shouldn't get hurt. I feel guilty if I don't do something about it. I will be more hurt than anybody else if I see another innocent victim facing similar situations.




Morale of the story--

*Never take 'Panga' with a faculty member.
*Try to maintain a good pointer, at least u should not have any Back(people judge you by C.G.P.A. only).
*Always keep your attendance 100%(what if you have to bunk classes for entire two or three week??)
*Try to make your image as a sincere student in your department(If you are sleeping in the class then also at least ask one question before finishing the class).
*Always try to have one or two true friends(who would not let you alone in trouble).
*Always keep trying, remember-"In middle everything can look like a failure".
*Keep better ability to convince people.
*Don't smoke or drink, it can harm your health.
*Before going to any 'DISCO' have some vodka or rum.(it will improve your English).
*Never miss a chance when you are alone in single room in any city.